Pardon the mess..im redecorating.

I am officially a CREDIT CARD owner! Watch out world..here I come!

(watch out debt..here I come.)

A good idea from Jenn.nu

Three pens (I love pens), a highlighter, a fat permanent marker (in case I see anything I need to vandalize), a bic mock zippo lighter case for bic mini’s, an owl that has a secret stash spot inside (thanks kelley), my BLACKBERRY!, a blue bic mini, a black bic, aloe vera lip balm, strawberry lip gloss, and my beautiful hemp wallet!

Im in bold.

“What do you want to eat? Want me to go to my moms and get some progresso soup for you?”

“Just leave me alone about it.I just ate some fettucini alfredo.” 

“Am I being annoying?”

“Yup.”

“Well what am I supposed to do? I guess im gonna talk a walk until youre in a better mood.”

“Oh please dont give me that pity party bullshit. Poor Soda, Poor Soda. His life is so hard.” (Then I started to pout in a really obnoxious way while looking right at him)

“How bout you shut up and go make me a cheese sandwhich.” 

“Ok.  I will. One slice of cheese or two?”

“Did you just call me a bitch under your breath?” 

“No!!! No I didnt!!! Please stop making stuff up now. Are you still PMSing?”

“Yeah. It doesnt just happen for two days, dumbass” 

“Well I dont know what its like. Ive never even asked anyone.”

Im back from Memphis. I had so much fun, Matisyahu MADE MY LIFE! Memphis was..awesome. The stores they had on Beale St were just, amazing. All of the Voudoo and Canjun influence made me wonder how the influence got there? Then I thought about the ferry boat craze and how Memphis was right on the Mississippi, the great Nile of the Americas.

Even more amazing of an experience were the Pinson Mounds.  I felt so small there and I came to realize my existence on this earth is largely insignificant when standing on land that you, without a doubt, know and understand was a whole city of people two thousand years ago. I tried to imagine them in my mind and I prayed to the Gods of that land that day.
Ive never been in an area where I knew I was standing amongst some giant spiritual entity that has been formed through the centuries by all of the great spirits who perished before me at the hands of change. I felt it for the first time today. It felt like energy. A small vibrational tone that hummed all around the area and with the wind it got louder. You could just feel them..all around you. It was as if I looked hard enough, I could see them, and if I reached out I would touch them.
I laid down at the top of the main 100ft tall ceremonial high priests mound and I had this sensation that at any minute someone who wasnt physically there with me would tickle my feet. Thats how real it was.

Most Americans are so ignorant about the original people of this land we now inhabit. Most Americans believe that they were a small, simple minded incomplex people.
They were not. They were a highly civilized, self governing, complex, spiritual people. Something we lack today. I understood it when I stood on top of that mound and looked around at the 1,100 acres below me. I tried to imagine looking down on my people, taking care of their daily activities, going home, walking to the edge of the river, praying, taking care of their children, and just living. It was very easy to imagine as I was standing there.
Hard for you to, im sure.
The central mount I stood on was the home of the high priest of that town. The mounds were located in precise geographical locations. From the top of that mound you could look out and see the sun rise directly over another mound that was used to bury the honored. Maybe it was those honored that I felt up there that day. The four corners of the mound stretched out to the 4 vast cardinal directions. The High Priest could see everything from the East Citadel one mile away, to the 500 acre underground geometrical ceremonial complex that modern archaeologists still dont know anything about. See, thats what kills me about today.
Today our technology has taken the place of their spirituality. Today we dont know our Earth Mother and we do not respect her. Today instead of honoring the Earth and drinking her clean water we build a radioactive chemical waste plant by the edges of her rivers. Then we have the nerve to ask God why are children are born with 6 fingers and an eyeball on their cheek or whatever other physical and metal defects have been born from foreign substances being introduced to nature.
Ever wonder why your daughter has ADHD and you say..wow..I wonder what they did about ADHD back in the good ol days. Or wonder why you are bipolar and wonder what they did about bi polar disorder before proxac. Well, they probably didnt have it. Just like they didnt have nuclear chemical particles floating around in our air and entering our bodies through our nasal capacities and sitting in our lungs waiting to seep into our bloodstreams and brains to infect us with whatever modern trash has gotten us into this sick situation where our society is filled with mental disease and  physical diseases that were unheard of before our own people began to poison US, the common man, for THEIR, the rich mans, benefit.
We do not live in communities who care about one another. Our leaders do not look upon us with pride, they dont care what happens to us. They do nothing to spiritually empower us and leave us to fend for ourselves in a nation that eats the weak.
We dont have support from our neighbors, hell, most of us are left with no real friends either.  We call ourselves civilized but, are we, really? Do we really have any clue about our nature, our origins. Do we even care to know? Do we even respect the idea? Probably not.

I know that life is a process. Things change as time changes and the one thing in life we cannot change is change itself. However, my mind is plagued with the thought of our current situation and how it came to be. I wonder if we will ever become aware.

Do you think so?

I just moderated my comments..and…I got 4 SPAM messages from bloussant asking me if I needed bigger breasts..

They tryin to tell me something?

Probably.

I know ive sort of been neglecting this thing…

Its all because of the blackberry. My slogan for the BB is….BE ON THE INTERNET, EVEN WHEN YOURE NOT ON THE INTERNET! hahaha.

So, my boyfriend came back home tonight..probably about 45 minutes ago and I swear to God I think he packed everything he owns. Tomorrow we are heading to Memphis to see 311 & Matisyahu…
I decided that we would stay there over night at a hotel..preferably one with a pool open 24 hours. But, seeings how its MEMPHIS and Memphis is fucking ghetto…I dunno.

La la la. I have nothing to write about because without Soda around..I just..do nothing! I sit around and dont do anything cool or interesting. So, ill have some pics up from Memphis prolly Sunday night or something.

Do you ever get tired of your life and find yourself fantasizing about picking up, packing up, and moving?

For me, lately..ive been getting this restless feeling. Tired of the same scene and the monotony but who isnt? Who doesnt get tired of their life and wonder what life would be like if certain events played out differently?

Sooo…im really hoping that my phone comes today. If it doesnt come today then it will probably come Monday but…I WANT IT TODAY!

I cant sleep at all. I went to bed around 3am so technically  I should still be sleeping right now, however, I drank a half a gallon of water last night in this intense burst of thirst I had last night and seeings how I never ever drink water it was probably a good thing…but anyways, ive been up pissing every hour or so lol and I cant get back to sleep. Wah.

Last nights broadcast went well. Im having a lot of fun doing this and ive got a steady number of listeners….I love it! I dont wanna talk about it too much over here but go check out nineunknownmen.net to find out more..

Ive got my first real broadcast on N U M . Check out http://nineunknownmen.net and click on the alien icon on the left…check out the most recent broadcast..hope you enjoy it!