Im so frustrated right now. I am really fed up with hearing about this bullshit so im going to take a tip from Tori Spellings mom and write a FUCKING OPEN LETTER.

Dan,
Regarding this god damned amp. Listen and listen fucking close.
Damn near three years ago when Soda and I got together WE helped Ryan move out of Knollwood. I was there. Yup. I was there. So was that amp. You were gone long before that and my main question is..if that amp was so fucking important..why the hell didnt you come back and get it? It was sitting in that apartment without you long enough for the lease to run out with just Ryan there. It doesnt matter if you paid the rent every month, that is a moot, sad, pathetic fucking point. When we helped him move out of Knollwood WE (read, SODA AND I) helped him move into Rock Harbor. That amp was also at Rock Harbor for a good MONTH before Ryan handed it over to Soda. So, one again, my question is…why the FUCK didnt you contact Ryan about this stupid amp? You had weeks, months to do this and yet you didnt. Isnt there a legal statute of limitations on this sort of thing? Im pretty sure there is. That amp was with Ryan long enough for him to think it was his so he handed it over to Soda as payment for Soda helping him move twice. I was there BOTH times. All this happened over the course of me and Sodas relationship. Not long after that Soda brought the amp over to your place multiple times for “band practice” that you didnt give a shit about being a part of (I cant blame you because I didnt give a shit either) and you never said anything about having ownership of that amp but in NO TIME you had it in pieces around your house.  There isnt one time I recall you ever saying that the amp was YOURS. I remember you asking Soda how he got it..but thats far, far, FAR from explaining to him that the amp was your at the very beginning. Which would have saved me from wasting my god damn time writing this.

So, fast forward however long. Ive noticed for a good while that you dont give two shits about hanging around Soda. Im not sure why, but he was totally oblivious to it..but..im not quite as naive or maybe he just didnt WANT to notice. I didnt even bring it up to him because I know it would hurt his feelings.
A couple weeks ago..well..more like a month or so ago..he and I both came over to your house to get his bass cab that he let you borrow. He said hed come back tomorrow for the amp..and you didnt object. You waited until AFTER he left to CALL him ON THE PHONE and say “Oh, ho hum..how did that amp ever get to be yours anyway?” WHY DIDNT YOU ASK THIS ONE FUCKING YEAR AGO WHEN WE BROUGHT THE AMP OVER YOUR HOUSE IN THE FIRST PLACE?
Very, very pussified way out if you ask me.

So..I did the wrong thing and assumed that you would get in touch with every mutual friend you and Soda have and draw a figurative line between you and Soda and say…”Either youre with me, or youre not.” And im    VERY fucking pissed to say that my assumptions were absolutely correct. In the past year and my very minute contact with you I have watched you go from being one of my favourite people for Soda to be around and a very positive influence, to being everything that I thought you never wanted to be. Someone who completely sold out to the “scene” and suddenly became too good for everyone but the minors who followed you to your shows and hailed your existence as if there was something to hail in the first place. Or maybe youre insanely bitter that the only band that ever promised to get anywhere no longer exists? I dont know. It was definitely after the break up of Moral Decay that I noticed this change. So im sure thats got something to do with it. But thats not anyone arounds you fault, especially not Sodas.

Im not even sure you realize that you are the way you are right now. You put up so much of a front because youve dealt with so much in life. You are the cocky smartass. The guy who ALWAYS gets one over on someone else. Youve got the best come backs and youve always got the perfect witty comeback or remark to make at someone elses expense, and its funny..you play that role perfectly but I think it hides a lot. Youve got a tough exterior but I think it stops at the exterior. And, thats where it really starts to make me less pissed off and more sad because I think youre a lot more than this.

I know that you think youve won, that youve come out on top.

Ive told Soda to let you keep the amp because if that amp really meant that you were willing to put up this much of a fight…then that pretty much sums up everything that I need to say and it really explains a lot about the person you have become, and maybe youre not willing to admit that this is who youve become..but we will see.

Keep in mind Sodas not got shit to do with this. Its all me. Im the bad guy.