I rarely ever write about the mechanics and the dynamics that make up my relationship with Soda.  At the beginning of our relationship…it sucked. It was horrible. I have no idea how either of us  made it through…but now…things are so different. Things change. I believe we effectively went from being he and I…to us, and thats what changed things. At some point during the relationship two people realize where this is going, I think. I dont think this has to be a spoken or communicated realization. It certainly doesnt have to be for most people. But, you begin to realize that you two are no longer total separate entities but that you, along with being separate entities, are also “one.” I think that is when the dynamic of our relationship changed. When we realized that we became “one.” We started to seriously argue less and less until every argument we had we were able to smile throughout the whole thing and you could tell that there were no negative feelings, even though we were having an argument. Thats still how it is today. Its not like we dont argue. We do. We get on each other nerves a lot too. Its just that those arguments, they dont change us so they are largely insignificant and we are able to move past them in a matter of an hour or so…sometimes less. Its very remarkable how things have changed.

I never would have pictured myself in a relationship like this. Where I was living with a man who worships the ground I walk on. Where we both loved each other equally and hated spending time apart from each other. I never pictured myself having a lover who I was absolute best friends with.  I guess I just thought it wouldnt happen, or that it would happen to everyone else before it happened to me. I didnt think I would find someone who would put up with me, or that I would find someone who I would put up with. Its sort of weird how things came to be with he and I. I like it.

So, anyway…
The other morning I woke up to a little box and a note from him.  He saved up some money and went out to buy me a very pretty wedding ring set. Engagement ring, and wedding band. I dont think he knew that it was a “wedding set” lmao. I mean, I know that he bought this for me as an engagement ring, but I dont think he had any idea that the other ring along with it was the wedding band. Well, needless to say..its very very pretty. I put pictures of it up on my Flickr for everyone to check out.

Its strange for me to say that I am engaged. To be married. Im going to end up getting married. Thats so weird. But…there isnt anyone else out there for me. Everyone who knows me and Soda know without a doubt that he and I are so meant for each other its fucking creepy.

Something I enjoy about him is that…he hasnt changed me. I mean, I am sure that I have changed since ive been with him. When you meet people that mean a lot to you, they generally have some sort of influence over your life. But, he hasnt changed me in a sense that our beliefs dont clash. He knows my beliefs, respects them and in most cases agrees with them. I dont have to be demure or embarrassed, reserved or held back. I can just be me. All of me. The farting, shitting, burping, tampon throwing, disgusting, way left of center, off the wall me. And he loves it all. ^_^

Its really great.