Its high time I get a new layout. Im gonna be working on it so ..bare with me here.

Ive got a not so serious bone to pick, lmfao.
Ok, some quick background info on this entry….I am member of a message board called lavish.nu. Ive been reading the board for, forever. Probably since its inception and I decided to become a member, I dunno..maybe a month or so ago. Maybe more. Im really bad with time.
Anyhow, I quickly learned that there is no such thing as a “discussion” on that board. No one can “discuss” anything without it turning into a really, really retarded argument somewhere down the line.
I posted a thread about an idea that I had, about a collaborative photography website dealing with the expression of physical spiritual love and the human form. I asked for peoples opinions on my idea, and instead of getting opinions…I get people trying to start an argument about it. You can actually check out the thread here.

You will see there that the first response I got was…”whats the purpose.” Instead of “I think that idea blows chunks.” Or “Thats a pretty cool idea!” Instead of actually answering my question and posting an opinion, they tried to start an argument regarding the point of the project. Thats not really what I asked. A girl named Chewnicorn was the only person who actually GAVE me an opinion, which I really appreciate. I wasnt asking these people to be a part of it. I wasnt asking them to get into the theology of my idea, lmfao. All I asked for..was..”that fucking sucks!” or “sounds ok.” Or maybe even…”sounds cool.” But, no. That is much, much too complex for the members of lavish.nu.

This is something you will find ALL OVER lavish. Someone starting a thread and just wanting to have a discussion about something and either someone immediately starts an argument about it (in my case) or someone posts their own person opinion and then someone else takes it upon themselves to get offended and start crying and that just starts a whole hailstorm of really pathetic attempts at having an intelligence fueled debate and it just ends up being a mish mash of people crying, people making no sense, and then the few resident “know it all’s” coming along and trying to talk about how they…know it all, then the biggest resident know it all locks the thread. This is a scenario that is played over, and over, and over again and I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.

Does anyone else think its completely fucking retarded? Completely ridiculous that a group of people cant share their thoughts and opinions without having to deal with a couple deluded dumbfucks coming along and whining and crying about how they are offended then some stupid free for all argument breaks out and then the thread gets locked? Whatever happened to INTELLIGENT DISCUSSIONS. I have yet to see even ONE on Lavish. It gets sooo old, so quick.

Ive come across quite a few really cool people on lavish..and then..there are the three or four members who really have a big head and seem to think they are something that they really arent. Im not sure if its just because they dont have enough drama in their real lives (I know that a lot of thems lives revolve around people they met on the internet, so that would definitely indicate a lack of real life action going on) or if they just need some good ol fashioned DICK UP IN THEY PUSSY. That way they get the figurative dick out of their ass.

It never fails, it doesnt matter WHAT you post about, there are a good 4 people I can think of that will come along and somehow or another choose to be offended at something youve said and then theyll cry and then I have to ask them if I need to call the WAHHHmbulance and then they lock my thread.

They will literally argue with brick walls. If that brick wall is red, one will tell the wall its crimson, the other one will KNOW FOR A FACT BECAUSE SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING, that the wall IS in fact, Maroon. And so on, and so on. It is such an annoyance and overall pathetic. Not to mention that you WILL hurt someones feelings with your first post and EVERY OTHER post you make, that person will make sure they reply to you and try so hard to be a cunt to you because their asshole still hurts from where you butt fucked them so hard it made them bleed in previous posts.

You may wonder why I post this here…well, because I cant be censored here. No one here has the power to hide behind moderator abilities and avatars that only show their face because..well..lol, lets not kid ourselves..we all know why we rarely ever see more than a face in most of these peoples pictures. I dont even have to go there.

Well that was fun.

Edit..
Now, with all of that said, I would like to point out that some of the people on Lavish are also the most hypocritical group of people ive ever come across. They will be the first ones to jump into an argument, and then when you show them up at the argument they started..they are the first to cry on the “say something to a lavish member” thread or they just lock your thread so that they can be sure that they have the last word because, heaven forbid they come across as the true morons they are and lose their status’s as lavish.nu’s patron saints of one upping, know it alling, and being deluded.

Sodas mom is NOT invited to our wedding.  Shes a wench. I think thats probably a pretty accurate term to describe her. I dont think that I have ever PERSONALLY known a “mother” who has been so uncaring, unsympathetic and nonsupporting of their child as her. I dont know. Its a big long mess that im really, really not going into right now. I have never met her, and Soda has made sure of that for three years and for a while..it offended me. I wanted to meet her and I wanted her to be a part of our lives, but after tonight..I completely understand why he has kept us apart and there isnt a bone in my body that wants to meet this woman.

She basically throws his and I’s relationship into the dirt every chance she can get, even though she doesnt know me..and hasnt ever met me, just because she has some sick reverse Oedipus complex and shes never been able to maintain a meaningful relationship and it just eats her up and her son has something she could never have and that there is another woman taking care of her son (AND DAMN GOOD FUCKING CARE YOU GOD DAMNED BITCH). Well, I hate to break it to the cunt but…she never took care of her son. Soda says that the problem lies in the fact that he isnt growing up to “be someone” or “be what she thought he would be” or “be successful” well, ive got one big question for her..what the fuck have you done in your life? Youve never even worked a decent job long enough to halfway take care of him and his WHOLE life..hes NEVER ASKED YOU FOR ANYTHING. NOTHING.  Hes loved you, and tried to have a relationship with you for years and all you do is belittle him. Ive got news for you, when you have a child, that child is his or her own unique person. They are not an extension of you, as you seem to believe. This has led the man I love to be very sad, and very insecure with himself because the mom he had around him his whole life never gave two shits about him and acted as if she just detested him and still does.

He has made the decision to cut ties with you for the moment for this very reason. You do not make him happy. Everytime he calls you, or visits you..he comes back distraught, sad, emotional and sometimes in tears. You are a negative force in his life and tonight you finally made this very clear to him.

It really breaks my heart. My own mother loves Soda, and does so much for him. He will tell you in a heartbeat that my mother has done more for him in the three years weve been together than his mom in his whole life and that he KNOWS without a doubt that MY mother loves him, but hes not so sure if his loves him.

So, to my boyfriends mother..
Remember that every time you say he has no idea what love is. And, that we are just stupid idiots..remember that you are recalling your own failed relationship. Remember that your feelings are said in jealousy out of the fact that youve never been able to make anything work in your life. That everything you have touched has turned to shit. Remember, that you had one chance to be EVERYTHING to a little boy who needed you more than anyone in your life will ever need you and you continuously, effectively disappointed him and let him down. He says he cant remember the last time you have said an encouraging word to him. You are sad, and bitter at the shell of a woman you have become and I have to say that I derive pleasure from knowing you sit alone in your home every night and that you go to bed alone every night, and that this is the way its going to be for the rest of your life.

So, in short my dear loves mother..

FUCK YOU.

Here I am. Once again. Left to try and piece together the many thoughts that swim around inside my head and condense them into one small blog entry. A feat that is…damn near impossible, if you will.

Well, I have had writers block…not really writers block..but..I havent been able to accurately piece together my million thoughts into something that is even halfway legible. For this reason, I am thinking of starting a serious VIDEO BLOG. Nothing fancy, no cool editing program needed…just something as an alternative to feeling like I am at a loss for blog entries. So, when I dont feel like sitting down and writing a novel here at findnirvana.net I can just..make a “vlog.” LoL. Dont laugh too hard.

Anyway..yeah..I bought Sodas ring today…SHHHHH. Its just a stainless steel band. I didnt want anything too fancy in case he loses it. Lets hope it fits. We got his finger sized today and it was about an 8..give or take a few lil marks. So. We will see. Ill post pictures when I get it.

So, expect some video blogs soon…^_^