Today is New Years Eve. In 24 hours, it will be 2008. A lot has gone on in this world this year. I cant imagine that 2008 will be any better of a year for our dying world. People will continue to be ignorant, people will continue to ignore, and people will continue to go through life completely tuned out.

Hopi prophecy says that there are two paths in life. The path of the spirit, and the other path. Humanity has been on “the other path” for some time now. We are currently at the crossroads where we realize we have a choice, and if we continue on “the other path” there will be a great purification period. The Earth will purify itself from that which is making it ill: humanity.

Humans have successfully learned how to “tune out.” We ignore everything. It is easier to NOT think. It is easier to NOT ask questions and to believe blindly in everything our television tells us to believe. Its much easier to live life without striving to learn the truths about our origins, the truths about who we are, and the truth about the power that we as human beings naturally have within ourselves. The power to be, and the power to effect change in such a way that no one has ever seen before. Yet, very few of us know how to use that power because we have been subliminally programmed to hand off all of our personal power to a number of things like mythical beings and political or religious figures, or even people we see on TV. We give them credit for OUR power and effectively hand ourselves over  to them. We stand for nothing so we fall for everything.

I can only hope that 2008 is the year that we free our minds and release ourself from the mental prison that American mass media, government and religion have trapped us in for centuries. A prison where we have become completely desensitized to war, genocide, destruction and death. A prison that has turned us from the spiritually enlightened beings we once were, into mechanical machines that are programmed to never process the information around us. To drone on and on with the daily activities that will mean nothing when we are dead. Mechanical Machines that are programmed not to ask questions and not to seek answers. No substance.
I can only hope, but something tells me that things will only be getting worse. We will only get more ignorant and we will only ignore our surroundings more until we are completely desensitized by everything including what is on our very doorstep.

This year I will focus on maintaining optimal health and continuing on my road to personal enlightenment. I hope that my mind remains free from limitations and boundaries and I am only able to learn more, no matter how crazy it makes me.

Its about 9:15AM. I went to bed around 7AM. I was talking to Sarah on the phone for forever..and then I decided to try to sleep and I think I fell asleep for a little bit and then I woke up around 8 or so. I went and got the mail and I found my blackberry skins had came FINALLY. Its been about three fucking weeks. About damn time.

In other news, I just installed Opera Mini on my BB. Now im gonna install gtalk so that I can get back to using my twitter updater thingie and then im gonna e-mail the im+ people and see whats going on with the im+. I have Ramble but its..really basic.

Soda comes home today, which is why I think I cant sleep. I cant tell you that I am not worried. The weather is bad up North and they are going to be driving right through it..so..something tells me I wont be sleeping a whole lot today. I was going to take Claude to the Vet because of his cold..but he seems to be doing a bit better. Ive been feeding him some vitamins and today im going to give him a lil bit of vitamin C. His eyes arent watering and he isnt sneezing and stuff, hes just a lil congested so we will see. If hes still congested after  a few days of vitamin C administration, then I will take him in and get him some kittie amoxcillan.  Kitties arent supposed to have a lot of vitamin c but a very small amount one time a day for no more than 4 days is a good option for kitties suffering from colds. He seems better..hes been climbing again so thats good.

Well..mom and her boyfriend, Scott, were supposed to go to Memphis today but they decided to wait until tomorrow. Thats good. So, after I get my clothes from Kelleys house and go to Walmart with her to pick up some essentials..me and mom are gonna hang out a bit.  Then ill probably finally fall asleep but before Soda comes back im gonna pick up the house, touch up my hair, bathe..all that good stuff so ill be ready ^_^. Im happy hes coming home, ive missed him.

As human beings, we have forgotten how to not only exist upon this Earth, but with this Earth. A tree breathes what we exhale. We breathe what the tree exhales. This gives us a common destiny with the tree. We are a part of this Earth. We are not separate from it and we are not separate from this universe and whatever magnificent force may be out there, but we are a part of it. Modern mythology may tell us that we are lesser than it, but that is a myth used to control the masses..we ARE it. But, we have forgotten. We have evolved technologically and devolved spiritually and look where it has taken us. It has taken us into an age of nuclear weapons where one detonation will wipe out entire cities and leave the shadows of its victims forever etched into some dimension that we cant comprehend, its led us into a world of man made religion where faith means nothing and we are scared to even question what television tells us is true. When is the last time you planted something? When is the last time I planted something? When is the last time you sat outside and really meditated on the fact that your dna is the same as that around you and you are a part of your atmosphere…not some separate being that exists only within the confounds of social norms and corporate cultural machines. Love, live, learn, and exist with what you are.

I wanted to add that you also do not simply exist within the confounds of what you think you know to be true about this universe and the many realities that exist within it. Do not be afraid to learn. Knowledge is power, knowledge is INFINITE and to rob yourself of it is the greatest injustice you could do yourself. Be Scholarly.

I told her this film was about two girls competing to win a gymnastics trophy.

That a man plays his guitar like he makes love. Watch a man play his guitar and see the passion in his eyes, his face, his hands, his arms, his body…passion just seeps from his being, and he will fuck you that same way. Any girl whos been with a guitar player will be able to identify with what im saying.

Now, with that said..everyone go watch the video for Jeff Buckley “So Real.” Check out the end..and just imagine how hed be in bed.

Well, I havent been writing much because Kelley gave me one of my Christmas gifts early and it was The Sims 2 Deluxe Edition! Im pretty much addicted to this game and I spend hours downloading stuff for it and even more hours playing it. Right now im thinking about starting my own neighborhood with all of my custom chars in it. That will be cool.

Anyway, Soda leaves tomorrow. At about 6AM to go to his grandmothers house. I dont know how I feel about it. Generally I am pretty cool with it and I enjoy my alone time but I feel sad this year for some reason. Like, I dont know what im gonna do without him. I have to get things on my own, work on my own, be alone all day everyday. I dont know if ill be able to handle it..so..im trying to find some Xanax lmao. I want a whole bunch. Ill probably take one every single day while hes gone just to pacify myself and keep away the anxiety that I get when he isnt around. I do get separation anxiety when I am away from him. Not anything that is connected to attachment issues but I feel like hes been my security blanket now for so long and I feel at ease and comfortable as long as hes around and when hes gone its like..I dont know what to do with myself. Im used to having someone around to talk to, etc. I dunno. Hard to explain. I can just imagine when 7AM rolls around and I realize hes gone for a while. The sinking feeling in my stomach and the dread. I will be ok though. Ill pick up blogging again and that will make me feel better.

I know, I know. I havent written in a while. I havent had anything to write about and I go through periodic bouts of extreme writers block…but…

I will be back soon! ^_^

By the way, I got my new phone. Its perfect.

A while ago Soda and I were browsing a really awesome website that I found that has tons of gadgets, toys and just basically, tons of a kick ass shit. So, yeah, anyway…we were browsing through the list of all the kick ass shit and he saw something he wanted me to click it and check it out. So I did. He was soooo excited about this particular item  and he couldnt stop talking about how cool it was, going through all of its features and his eyes were just sparkling with excitement. This item is a little bit on the expensive side though. So, I know for a fact that he wasnt putting on some show with the idea that because he looked so interested, I would buy it for him. This thing is totally out of our price range. I mean TOTALLY.

The look on his face and the excitement that he had while looking at this thing and talking about it and telling me what he would do if he had it…it just made me feel like I HAVE to get this item for him for Christmas. I want to be responsible for all that excitement that happens when he opens up his gift and sees what it is. I want that SO bad. That would be the perfect gift for ME. To be responsible for him feeling that way.

So..I saved up and it is looking like I might be able to get him this item. I really hope so. And that my friends..is what love does to you, lmfao.

Its also relatively safe to write about this. He hasnt been getting on the computer at all lately but I still dont want to write exactly WHAT it is.

Im going to FUCKING New Orleans to see 311 on 311 day!!!! Life cannot be better than this.

There is a big possibility that I will end up beating the shit out of someone at some point this weekend.

Actually…shes probably too much of a little pussy. But I sure am going to degrade her until she starts to cry.