Today I entered myself into treatment. Replacement therapy treatment, which means Methadone. I am not in the least bit ashamed of this…shit, I wasnt ashamed of being a Heroin addict. Im doing it, so why be ashamed?

Anyhow. Today was the best day ive had in a very very long time. It was the first day in what seems like forever that I have not worried about where im gonna get the money to get my dope. It was the first day I rode my bike down to my moms pool, went swimming for two hours, got out, went to the store, bought two new bathing suites, some new jellies (remember those shoes??? I got some!! ahaha old school fresh stylee!!!), then I went to the bookstore and bought a trillion books on tarot. I am starting to study tarot again.

I used to read tarot when I was really too young to comprehend the meaning and potency behind symbolism, but now, I do. I do because of my own life experiences. I want a hobby that interests me so I decided to take up tarot reading again because not only will it allow me to gain insight into my own life, but others too/