Or maybe bloggers block. Basically I just havent had anything to blog about. Mainly because I dont DO a whole lot. My life consists of no drama, no partying, no crazy drinking or drug use. And…you know what? I am happy with that.

Everyday I pretty much do the same thing. I go to the clinic in the morning, I get on the computer, do some work, some days I meet Kelley at the park for lunch. Yadda, Yadda.

Oh, yeah. So..today Soda got into a wreck. His car is more than likely totaled. He is not hurt..hes perfectly fine. But he is really sad, he fucking loved his car. Hes hoping that it can be fixed. It was the other guys fault…and insurance is for sure gonna pay for everything. But hes still really bent out of shape about it. I dont blame him. Id be pissed if my beloved car got smashered into a million little pieces.

Yeah, well..guess what? I ran out of shiz to write about!!! So…I am going to make oatmeal.

But, I PROMISE, PROMISE, PROMISE that I will start blogging more, and I will have some worthwhile material.

I am becoming freaking obsessed with these little odd looking dolls.
Im selling some stuff I dont need on Ebay, to try and save for one. Ive got a few in mind. One I really, really want, though.
Im thinking of names and stories in my head for the doll I am going to get. After Lindsay Lohan and Samantha Ronson recently coming out, I believe my Pullip will be a Lesbian. ^_^ lol.
That means I will have to save for her girlfriend too.

Guess what? I also just bought a wig for my non-existent Pullip.

Ive been wanting to get one of those whitening kits for your teeth for a long long time. Well..tonight I got one. It was the cheapest one so…well see. Its the 5 minute Plus White Speed Whitening system.

It kinda burns.

I come home from taking Soda to work this morning…and….my air conditioner isnt working. FUCK!!!! In fact, there isnt a FUCK loud enough for this situation seeings as how its been 90+ degrees here lately. So…I work, and work, and work on the damn air conditioner. Clean everything, blow the blow dryer on it so that if theres anything frozen up it would help unfreeze it and then I hit the reset button…and hoped for the best.

Meanwhile it starts getting really, really hot in the house. Claude and Charlie are fighting and all I wanna do is go back to bed. Doesnt look like thats gonna happen. Ive got a job interview at 4:00pm and I wanted to be well rested. Ive gotta go to the clinic, blah blah. So…I decided…fuck it, my day has obviously started..so I may as well color my hair.

As I start to brush my hair out and get ready for the color….I hear the familiar hum of the air conditioner. I race back into the living room…and…THERE IS A GOD!!!! My air was back on!!! YESSSS!!! Cha Ching! Whatever.
Only thing is..im not tired now so im gonna go ahead and color my hair as planned and start the damn day.
Maybe I can take an hour nap or something later. Im just glad the frickin frackin air is back on.

Oopsie. So its been a little while since I posted. Well, ive got a good excuse. Ive got my hands full. Saturday, August 9th was my birthday…so not last Saturday….but the Saturday before that (lol). I wrote here that I hoped to get a puppy…and I did! I got the exact puppy that I posted a picture of, and ive posted a couple pictures since.

His name is Charlie and hes a little Boston Terrier. The reason I chose a Boston Terrier was because my dad has one, and has had another in the past, and they are the most intelligent of the small/medium dog breeds. My dad really thinks a lot of the breed and even spending time with his Boston whos name is Lucy, I could tell they are very smart, loving, compassionate doggies that LOVE their masters and would do anything to please them. Very good companion dogs and thats what I wanted more than anything…a companion. I didnt chose a puppy based on how cute they were, or whatever. I researched a couple of breeds and decided that a Boston Terrier would be the best breed for me because of their characteristics, and they are relatively low maintenance, like short walks, dont like long walks, are perfect for apartments, etc, etc, etc. That sounded the best for me…and I was right. I really couldnt be happier with my little Charlie. I love him to death.

I was pretty worried about how him and my king kittie, Claude, would get along. Well..I am more than happy to report that they get along swimmingly. They play for hours at a time. Sometimes I do think that Claude is getting angry at Charlie..and could have the potential to hurt him…and because of that I watch them and monitor them. I do not leave them alone together at all because the actions of a cat are really unpredictable and you just never can tell, you know?

In other news….
I was laid off from my job. Ive been stressed out and depressed because of that. I have to find something new.. and soon. I do have an interview set up on Tuesday for something I am really not enthused about doing but I have to make money and I have to do it ASAP. Ive decided that I want to go to beauty school so I need a job to save up money to help me get into school, and pay for it throughout, etc.

Anyway…I started this entry like…hours and hours ago, so im gonna hop off of here and watch some TV or something. Buh Bye!!!!

This entry is gonna be kinda short. Oh well.

Basically I am in a damn good mood and I will tell you why….see, recently it seems as if things are just kind of, going in a negative direction. Financially, I have not been in a good spot for a while. Just struggling, you know? So….the other day I get an e-mail from my boss letting me know that shes adding three more hotels onto my route. That means a little more than 100 extra bucks a month. I was ecstatic. And, the hotels are not out of the way and are completely on the way. So I am not going to be using extra gas to get to them and its allll profit.
Well, yesterday my boss emailed me back to tell me to call her this weekend…she wanted to remove some hotels from my route. She talked about removing 5 or 6 hotels. In the email she told me to call her this weekend to discuss it. Ugh. I was so fucking nervous.

So….I called her and basically she just wanted to make sure that I was not overwhelmed by all of the hotels I am responsible for…and of course I told her I was great and there was no reason to remove any of them….so…she didnt!! WOOHOO!! She also wants some samples of my design work because she may want me to design a bit for the company.

Kickass! Things are shaping up. ^_^.

So, Kelley had a quitmeter over at her site for how long its been since shes quit smoking (almost 14 weeks!!! yayy!!) so I decided to modify mine for how long its been since ive done Heroin. I dont have quite as long as she does but im getting there.

Time Passed: 6 weeks, 23 hours, 52 seconds
Grams of Heroin not smoked: 42
Money Saved: $2,400.00US. (Im not quite sure if thats accurate, although I dont know why it wouldnt be…it just looks like a lot of money….damn).

Anyway…its like 7am. I think I am SORT of getting used to waking up at 5AM every morning. Its kinda rough. But, I have come up with a routine.
Wake up at 5am, get Sodas lunch ready for the day, wake Soda up, keep waking Soda up every 5 minutes until its 5:20 or 5:30 and then he has to rush to brush his teeth and put his uniform on so we can get out the door. He works out in the country (sorta, its definitely not in the city) and theres this little gas station, called Andersons, the only gas station around that sells BADASS breakfast foods like sausage biscuits, gravy biscuits, ham biscuits..basically heaven because its a bunch of damn biscuits and im a biscuit eater..BISCUIT! Whys it spelled like that? Id just spell it Biscut. Oh well.
So..yeah..after I drop Soda off im gonna go to Andersons and get me some home made breakfast to eat on my way home, then come home and get a few more hours of sleep.

Im at the few more hours of sleep part now. ::yawn::

One of the categories I put this post in was “late night” and, its not really that late. Just 12:15 or so….but I am pretty tired so that could qualify as “late.”

You know, I havent been doing ANYTHING lately. Its not that I cant think of anything to do…its just that I really, really, really have preferred staying home and I dont want to leave my home. I love my home and the comfort it provides and I would rather be here than anywhere. I am not depressed or anything like that, I actually feel good staying here. But, maybe I should start trying to go out anyways. I dont feel bad, but maybe if I went out I would feel even better. Who knows.
My counselor said that this is very common in people who are quitting or have quit using. I dont really know..haha. This is pretty much just another rambling post.

Ive been playing The Sims again. It seems like whenever I get to playing The Sims, I neglect everything else I should be doing like blogging. Hence the reason I havent blogged in a while.

But, seriously, I am getting really tired and once again I wish this post could have actually been about something, I hate that it was a waste of your time…lol…actually I dont give a shit if it was a waste of your time…::rasberries::.

Im gonna go to bed!

Oh YEAH! Before I go…a year or so ago, maybe more, I did a broadcast on NowLive called NineUnknownMen. Well, I am starting it back up again. Check out nineunknownmen.net.

Im not really slightly irritated. Thats just something I heard on “My Life On The D-List.”
I am pretty bored…and I have caught myself yawning here and there. So, once again I have nothing to write about, but, whatever. Oh yeah! I finally deleted my myspace account. *GASP* Why would someone delete their myspace? Well, because myspace is BULLSHIT. I have never been into myspace that much and I have bitched, and bitched, and bitched about it for the longest time..about how stupid it was.

Well, today I signed on for the first time in a while…I havent been signing onto myspace a whole lot lately, maybe once a month or so…and I see that myspace has yet ANOTHER way of ranking and categorizing friends. I dont like this. I do not like ranking and categorizing friends. Friends are friends to me. I dont rank them, or categorize them. I love and care for them all. So…finally…I was like FUCK IT and I deleted my myspace.

WOOHOO! Everyone should say FUCK YOU myspace and get rid of theirs too! Hah, I doubt that will happen…even though I really fail to see the glamor of this fuckin website…and I really cant fathom the glamor anyone else sees in it either. Oh well!

I REALLY have nothing to write about. But, for once, I actually feel like writing. Go figure, the one time I really feel like writing…I have nothing to write about.

Im sitting here eating chocolate donuts. They are GOOD too.

Whew..ok…lol..I started writing this entry like 45 minutes ago. Sorry. This entries gonna be all over the place but like I said, I just feel like writing.

When I first started working for the company I am presently employed with, during the spring, summer, and fall, I would park my car somewhere downtown and walk around downtown to work, instead of driving around like I normally do. My job requires me to visit a bunch of different places during the day and the majority of those places are downtown. So, I would park my car and walk around and I had a lot of fun doing it. The exercise I got was great, and I just felt good. Ive decided that I am probably going to start walking around again because I need the exercise and I think it would just be overall…a healthy change that I could make in my life. Sure, it would take a lot longer than normal but the pros really outweigh the cons. I would use less gas, get more exercise, get some sun, etc. The only thing thats really keeping me from walking is that I dont have an mp3 player. It would be so much more fun if I could listen to my music while I walk. I brought this up to my mom and she said maybe she could get me an IPOD for my birthday. At first I didnt like the idea…but the more and more I think about it…the more and more I want a freakin IPOD! I used to think there was no need for an ipod because I had tons of CDs and therefore I had no use for one but I started thinking…
Sure, I have tons of CDs but it seems like they are constantly getting broken and thrown all over the car. If I had an ipod I could bring all of my CDs in, load them into my computer, then onto my ipod and put the CDs away here in the house and never have to use them again. Thus, eliminating all of the cds laying all over my car taking up shit tons of room…blah blah you get the picture.

So now I want one really bad hahaha. Ive been checking out all the different kinds and I would rather have an ipod classic than an ipod touch.

Kelley also found these AWESOME laptop skins. Ive found quite a few that I like. Im gonna buy one for sure so ive made a list of all the ones I like and then ill narrow it down to the one I want and buy it with some paypal money ive been saving. There are a lot of really, really badass skins on that site. They arent TOO terribly expensive either. Definitely within my budget.

Anyway…I seriously dont have anything else to write about. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my counselor at 8:30AM and then I have to go to an HIV education class and get an HIV test. So, I will be at the clinic for a lot longer than I care to be tomorrow and I need to try to go to bed by 12 or so. Last night I went to bed at 2:00AM!!!!!!! Can you fucking believe that? Ive been going to bed at like…9:00PM or 10:00PM but I made it allllll the way to 2:00AM last night! Thats when I like going to bed…no later than 3:00AM. I dont like going to bed super early but since I have to get up relatively early then of course I start getting tired super early too. But, ive figured out that I can wake up around 10:00AM and get to the clinic by 10:15 or 10:30AM and everything will be fine, its not any more packed than it is at 7:30 or 8:00AM, which is the time I normally go. Of course, the clinic closes at 11:00AM on Thursdays so on Thursdays I will have to get up by 9:00AM and make it down there…and Thursdays are normally pretty packed. So basically I am going to start waking up an hour or so later, giving myself a little longer to sleep, so that I can stay up a bit later and get my sleeping schedule on the track that I want it on. Which is going to bed anywhere from 12:00AM-3:00AM and waking up at about 9:30AM-10:00AM. Blah.

Ok. Im going to end this nonsense entry and watch some TV and do a little bit of reading. One of my favorite shows is on..its called “Most Evil” and it comes on the ID channel. You guys should check it out… ^_^