I talked to someone today about a Boston Terrier puppy and he said he would hold him for me until Saturday, which is my birthday. I REALLY hope he holds him for me, I am just crossing my fingers and really, really praying. You can see him in my flickr up there…..
He will be my Charlie, unless I think up a different name for him. I will update you on that one..haha.

Ive decided to get a puppy!!! Im going to get a Boston Terrier and his name will be Charlie. I hope that I can get him in two weeks. Pray for me, pray that I get the sweet little puppy that I want!!!

*Note…there isnt a puppy named Charlie in particular that I am getting…I just want a Boston and when I get one ill name him Charlie

This entry is gonna be kinda short. Oh well.

Basically I am in a damn good mood and I will tell you why….see, recently it seems as if things are just kind of, going in a negative direction. Financially, I have not been in a good spot for a while. Just struggling, you know? So….the other day I get an e-mail from my boss letting me know that shes adding three more hotels onto my route. That means a little more than 100 extra bucks a month. I was ecstatic. And, the hotels are not out of the way and are completely on the way. So I am not going to be using extra gas to get to them and its allll profit.
Well, yesterday my boss emailed me back to tell me to call her this weekend…she wanted to remove some hotels from my route. She talked about removing 5 or 6 hotels. In the email she told me to call her this weekend to discuss it. Ugh. I was so fucking nervous.

So….I called her and basically she just wanted to make sure that I was not overwhelmed by all of the hotels I am responsible for…and of course I told her I was great and there was no reason to remove any of them….so…she didnt!! WOOHOO!! She also wants some samples of my design work because she may want me to design a bit for the company.

Kickass! Things are shaping up. ^_^.

Once in a while when I come and sign into my wordpress (blog) account to see if I have anymore comments, or to write a new entry, I am greeted by a comment that someone I have never seen before, or even someone anonymous, has left me commenting on my “Opiate Addiction” entry.

I love signing on to see those comments. They really do make a difference in my life. It helps a lot to know that there are people out there who are going through the same thing I am, or who have gone through the same thing that I am going through. It truly does make a difference in my day, and helps to ground me as a person, and as an addict.

I wish that I could say I do not feel the temptation to use heroin at all anymore, but I do. However, that is part of the process and a lesson in how to resist temptations that are harmful. They are not only harmful to me, but HURTFUL to those around me.

There are not a whole lot of people who have the courage to come out about their addictions publicly in a blog for the world to see. Or..maybe there are and I have not found them yet. I would love to read some though…

Anyhow..I just wanted to say THANK YOU to anyone who has ever commented me telling me about their addictions and what they have gone through to get clean, or remain clean. It means a lot to me and I appreciate them! ^_^

Today I entered myself into treatment. Replacement therapy treatment, which means Methadone. I am not in the least bit ashamed of this…shit, I wasnt ashamed of being a Heroin addict. Im doing it, so why be ashamed?

Anyhow. Today was the best day ive had in a very very long time. It was the first day in what seems like forever that I have not worried about where im gonna get the money to get my dope. It was the first day I rode my bike down to my moms pool, went swimming for two hours, got out, went to the store, bought two new bathing suites, some new jellies (remember those shoes??? I got some!! ahaha old school fresh stylee!!!), then I went to the bookstore and bought a trillion books on tarot. I am starting to study tarot again.

I used to read tarot when I was really too young to comprehend the meaning and potency behind symbolism, but now, I do. I do because of my own life experiences. I want a hobby that interests me so I decided to take up tarot reading again because not only will it allow me to gain insight into my own life, but others too/

Yesterday was quite a turbulent day for me. For the past…many, many years I have believed in and practiced Hinduism but have never actively thrown myself into the Hindu community out of fear of rejection due to my race, and my culture. My race is not their race, and my culture is not their culture. You see, in the society I live in, the American society, we are so disgustingly unaccepting of others, and others cultures and races that I applied that American custom, to their society also. Boy, was I wrong. Here, in America, if you are different..in many ways, lets say, you practice a different religion, you look different, or you are a different race…you are singled out, picked on, and made a joke out of. You are pushed away instead of welcomed.

I was afraid of that same treatment if I went to the temple and willingly subjected myself as a minority. Now, I have been to the temple two other times. Once I just went and I was very welcomed by an old, old, OLD man who taught me the correct way to pray, then I took two friends to the celebration of Navaratri and to be honest..I had no clue what was going on that night.

So, as a Shaivite, I woke up yesterday morning with one worry on the brain. To go, or not to go. So, without further ado…I WENT! Yes, Soda and I were the ONLY white people there. But, no one looked at us weird, no one gave two fucking shits about our race, or our culture. We were welcomed with open arms and I even got a SPONSORED PUJA. Yes. Me. I went up, in front of everyone, with the priest and performed puja, aarati, everything. It was so great.

There were like one hundred people there, it was total chaos, no one cared what anyone else was doing..unlike church where youre made to sit down, shut up, and listen to some old dude talk about shit you dont care about. It was AMAZING.

I think this sums it all up:

So, yeah, ive been seeing commercials for the new Tamagotchi’s..version 5’s. So, you know me…the Tamagotchi uber geek. Im on the hunt. I went to walmart, no go. Sold out. The new Target was sold out, so im gonna go to the old Target and if they dont have one..then im gonna go to the Walmart in Ashland City which is like 40 minutes from here… ^_^. Ill keep you guys updated because I know this is OH SO interesting.

I am completely broke. My mom is gonna let me borrow some money until my check comes on Wednesday. Now, when I say COMPLETELY BROKE..I mean that I dont have gas money to get to my mom in order to get the money. So, Soda and I were scrambling around trying to find at least 5 dollars in change and I started to open my just drawers in my dresser and I found a BP (gas) card from God knows where. So, I called the 800 number on the back and it has 10.00 dollars available. Awesome!

I told Soda:
“This reminds me of something my friend Buck told me, when I was worried about going to Bonarroo on limited funds..he said.. remember always that JAH PROVIDES.” (Jah is what Rastas call God. It is the Rastafarian word for God). And then I said..”YES! JAH PROVIDES!”

So..I came back to my room, and just picked up this purse I havent used since before Kelley started giving me purses. In it, I found Thirty bucks!!!!

This is a small reminder that, yes, Jah does provide for you as well as providing for all of us. Regardless of what you believe JAH to be. An entity, divine essence, or the pure manifestation of Truth that resides in everything in this universe, even you and even me…

Everything works out the way its supposed to in the end.

I said that I would be going Monday to get a dermal anchor piercing…well, Monday is MLK day and the piercing place that does the dermals is not going to be open. SO, I decided to go ahead and go get my vertical labret done TONIGHT! Actually, in a few hours more than likely. I am pretty freakin excited about that. Im happy to be getting piercings again. Ill be sure to post some pictures on my flickr when I get finished ^_^

Teresa is running her first contest of the year over at her personal blog. You have a chance to win a beautiful turquoise bracelet created by Lori Jaclyn. She’s willing to ship anywhere and that means anyone is eligible to participate and win.